Just think

Ever looked at someone and thought so much about them?

The way they look at you. The way they smile. The way they have their hair. How they move, walk, talk. Everything you see matters because you may see that person on a daily basis but you have no idea what else is going on around the walls they guard themselves with.

People are afraid of what others thing everyday which is why so many people have built walls to protect themselves so people don’t know what they go through or are going through. Many people are going through something so hard to explain to someone who has everyday right in front of them.

To the people who have a good life and aren’t going through tremendous amounts of life problems causing them to hurt, to be angry at the world for everything they are going through, think about what you say. Some days when you are flaunting your life about how good it is, how you get what you want without working for it. Try thinking about how other people who are going through a tough time have to work their arse’s off just to get a piece of what they want, because they aren’t as fortunate as you and don’t have it all. They are struggling on a daily basis without saying a word to anyone.

Just think about what you say before you know what goes on behind closed doors.

This really is love

I don’t think I could ever describe how i feel about him. Like i have tried to describe it in words but i just can not do so. The way i feel about him is just unspeakable, How he makes me feel, they way he looks at me, how he makes me laugh. To all of the above.

He is the first guy to ever make me feel so special in the way that I’m excited to hear his car coming up my road.

At the same time, i feel so sad to see him leave. Like my heart aches knowing i have to wait a while until i can feel the save and warmth in his arms as we sleep beside each other.

His hugs are more than enough to make you feel loved. He makes me feel like i’m the only girl in the world sometimes.

The way he looks at me just makes me smile like an idiot, it’s even better when i look at him and hes already looking at me.

His eyes are one of the reasons i fell in love with him, they are so dreamy yet irresistible.

His lips as soft as can be, every time we kiss it’s like the first time, there’s that feeling there like we are meant to be.

I’m glad i met him because  if i didn’t then i don’t think i would be as happy as i am when he’s around.

I love him more than words or actions can say or do.

 

 

 

I think of you as family. But what am I to you?

Ever sit and wonder if you’re ever good enough?

Someone makes me think it everyday, how I’m not good enough to be apart of them. This is someone who’s suppose to be a big part of my life but isn’t. Someone who’s suppose to be by my side on a day to day basis. Unfortunately this person isn’t for many reason which i can’t even explain to why this person doesn’t bother with me at all. I make all the effort, all the texts, calls and meet ups. Yet I’m still sat here thinking why am i not good enough to be part of their life, I’m forever being let down.

Will i ever be good enough? I’ll never know, because everyday I’ll forever keep trying to be part of your life whether you like it or not, I think of you as family.

So to whoever reads this, you are always good enough even if someone important to you doesn’t think so.

You will always be good enough to someone.

Stay strong, Be proud

My whole life I’ve had people try and tear me down for the things I’ve believed in or for my dreams. Many people said how i wouldn’t succeed  and that i would be rubbish at it. being someone who got bullied a lot throughout my childhood and high school, I let people tear me down and get to me. I let them bully me because I didn’t think I was strong enough to fight them, and tell them that i will succeed. Being bullied took a toll on what I wanted to do in life, even the doctors told me i couldn’t do my dreams.

The reason for this blog is because today one of those people tried to tear me down like they did in high school. I didn’t let it get to me and I didn’t react to it either. I just let it slip by because If you don’t react then in the end they will get tired of bully someone who isn’t listening and carrying on with their dreams because they know they are better and can and will succeed. Being one of many who have been bullied, I always believed that the bully weren’t happy with themselves so they tried to drag down the people who were succeeding and making potential. They hated seeing other people happy, they didn’t like that you loved yourself.

So to anyone who’s ever been bullied, don’t let them tear you down, don’t let them get into your head and mess with your mind. Everybody is unique and will succeed. All you have to do is push them away, out of your mind, out of your life.  Take a step back and look at yourself everyday and say “I’m a winner at life, i will succeed. i will become my dreams!” I say this to myself everyday. I have people telling me how I’m such an inspiration, how I’m going to go far in life because I chose to ignore the people telling i was a nobody. I’m no longer a NOBODY!

To the people trying to bring anyone down, it isn’t working. Stop tearing people down, try and find happiness with yourself.

To the people who feel worthless and unwanted, broken and bullied. You are strong, you should be proud. And you are worth everything you are. Stay strong, be proud and live your life the way you want to