A dream come true

I smell the pillow that he sleeps with,

when he’s gone as his scent stays on the pillow next to me.

The vision of him,

curling up wrapping his arms around me.

The way his face smiles,

in his sleep.

Sleeping next to him is like,

a dream.

 

 

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Crystal Clear

The way I feel about him is crystal clear. 

Truthfully, I could talk about him all day and all night. I would still have a million more things to say about him. Sometimes words can become meaningless so these few words are, he is the most amazing person

I have ever met, I can not imagine my life without him.

He is the first person to make me smile in a while.

And it’s actually real.

He is my first and last thought of ever day.

See the thing is I don’t sleep so I have conversations with the moon. He talks about the sun and I, well I talk about him.

The way his baby blue eyes c

onnect with mine. The way he moves the hair from my face with one hand as the other runs up and down my back. The way he smiles, like holy mother of god. Could he be anymore adorable.

The love I feel for him is indescribable.

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You broke my heart..

The thought of letting go of all the hurt that I feel, how i’m breaking inside because of you! The thought of losing you, never seeing you again or even speaking to you.

Why should i feel like this after everything that you’ve put me through?

Because i actually care about you, because you once were everything to me and now..

Now it feels you’re turning into a small space at the back of my head, all our memories. pushing them to the back of my mind so i can move on except i don’t want to move on because of who you are..

Except to everyone you’re the innocent victim and i’m the bad guy, the one not there, distancing myself away for “no apparent reason” yet i don’t seem to recall you being there when i need you the most.

You ran away, you left, you broke my heart.. a long time ago..

This really is love

I don’t think I could ever describe how i feel about him. Like i have tried to describe it in words but i just can not do so. The way i feel about him is just unspeakable, How he makes me feel, they way he looks at me, how he makes me laugh. To all of the above.

He is the first guy to ever make me feel so special in the way that I’m excited to hear his car coming up my road.

At the same time, i feel so sad to see him leave. Like my heart aches knowing i have to wait a while until i can feel the save and warmth in his arms as we sleep beside each other.

His hugs are more than enough to make you feel loved. He makes me feel like i’m the only girl in the world sometimes.

The way he looks at me just makes me smile like an idiot, it’s even better when i look at him and hes already looking at me.

His eyes are one of the reasons i fell in love with him, they are so dreamy yet irresistible.

His lips as soft as can be, every time we kiss it’s like the first time, there’s that feeling there like we are meant to be.

I’m glad i met him because  if i didn’t then i don’t think i would be as happy as i am when he’s around.

I love him more than words or actions can say or do.

 

 

 

Stay strong, Be proud

My whole life I’ve had people try and tear me down for the things I’ve believed in or for my dreams. Many people said how i wouldn’t succeed  and that i would be rubbish at it. being someone who got bullied a lot throughout my childhood and high school, I let people tear me down and get to me. I let them bully me because I didn’t think I was strong enough to fight them, and tell them that i will succeed. Being bullied took a toll on what I wanted to do in life, even the doctors told me i couldn’t do my dreams.

The reason for this blog is because today one of those people tried to tear me down like they did in high school. I didn’t let it get to me and I didn’t react to it either. I just let it slip by because If you don’t react then in the end they will get tired of bully someone who isn’t listening and carrying on with their dreams because they know they are better and can and will succeed. Being one of many who have been bullied, I always believed that the bully weren’t happy with themselves so they tried to drag down the people who were succeeding and making potential. They hated seeing other people happy, they didn’t like that you loved yourself.

So to anyone who’s ever been bullied, don’t let them tear you down, don’t let them get into your head and mess with your mind. Everybody is unique and will succeed. All you have to do is push them away, out of your mind, out of your life.  Take a step back and look at yourself everyday and say “I’m a winner at life, i will succeed. i will become my dreams!” I say this to myself everyday. I have people telling me how I’m such an inspiration, how I’m going to go far in life because I chose to ignore the people telling i was a nobody. I’m no longer a NOBODY!

To the people trying to bring anyone down, it isn’t working. Stop tearing people down, try and find happiness with yourself.

To the people who feel worthless and unwanted, broken and bullied. You are strong, you should be proud. And you are worth everything you are. Stay strong, be proud and live your life the way you want to