The Maze

Ever wondered what it would be like to be in a never ending maze?

That’s the best way to describe my mind as if I’m stuck repeating the same mistakes everyday. My heart is split into a thousand pieces like I’ve been stabbed multiple times, within my body crumbles in excruciating pain from running, running a thousand miles to end up right  back to where I started.

No. Stop running and fight the pain, find where you want to go and make it happen.

Mistakes are portals to discovery

(first monologue I ever wrote.)

A Waiting Game

Everyday my eyes are set on one person, he has show me more love than anyone, been by my side every step of the way. He has been my rock this past month, he has made me realise I’m talented and has been waiting for me to show him another piece of my talent everyday whether its another chapter of my book, or another blog, or even another monologue. He inspires me more and more because he wants me to succeed, he wants me to show the world what I am truly capable of.

He makes my heart skip beats, he makes me feel like I’m the only girl in the world. he makes me believe in myself even when I don’t think I’m good enough to make my dreams come true. he loves me for me. He’s standing by me even with all my illness and problems, he has shown me that he isn’t going anywhere.

I think I have finally found the guy I’ve been waiting for, the guy who’s right for me.  If anyone every finds a person like this don’t ever let them go. I found my keeper, my love, my soul mate, my everything. I waited and waited, until he fell into my lap and I will never forget the day I met him 22:08:2016

Sometimes waiting can be annoying and boring but I finally found the person who loves me right. All you have to do is wait a little bit longer. you’ll find that special someone.

Its just a waiting game and you’ll finally win someday

 

keep dancing through life

You know that feeling when you sit there and think should I keep going? should I keep letting everything come tumbling down on me? is this going to get better?

Sometimes I think that I’m the only one who thinks like that, but everyone over the world is going through their own version of hell . Over this past year I’ve had things tear me down constantly, bad things but I’ve also had things that have made me realise that my future is bright and that I just need to get up and dance through life like nobodies watching. Like nothing else is going to tear me down.

Everyday I get up and out of bed even when its a struggle and I don’t want to. But every morning something reminds me that I need to, that I have too. And everyday is another step closer to my dreams, my passions, my future.

So if there is ever a day when you don’t want to get up and out of bed just think that one day you will succeed.

Go show the world what your made of, that’s what I’m doing everyday even when I just feel like turning the alarm off and rolling over, shutting my eyes for a different day to come. So many people out there are like this but they don’t know that they have potential, they have talent and they have an opportunity to be who they want to be.

Remember keep dancing through life and following your dreams

Behind closed doors 

Have you any idea what it’s like to be able to see things happen to someone you care about and not help? Because I have today someone I love collapsed and I’ve been through so much with this person, I’ve been their rock, they have  been mine. They have been my world and I love them to pieces. 

I have been there for that person when they have  been in hospital and cared for them throughout everything but to watch it all crumble in pain when everything feels like it’s crashing around them, to watch that and all you can do is sit there and watch it happen. 

It hurts you because you love them, because you want to help them, you want them to get better. I have seen so many people hurt, I have watch someone lose what they have because of their disabilities and that can effect you too. 

Remembing everything little detail that happens to them and all you can do it sit next to them and hold their hand to go through it with them. 

Remember you don’t know what goes on behind closed doors. 

I’m an inspiration?!

Today I was told that I’m an inspiration, i sat down in my class today and I was talking to this lady who teaches me. I told her about how I’m a dancer, actress, blogger, author, YouTuber and photographer. She told me how it seems like I have such dedication and passion in the things I do. Until I told her why I do what my dreams are and my whole entire story behind everything. She was so shocked at the fact that I didn’t stop when I wanted to give up, I didn’t stop when the doctors told me I wouldn’t succeed and I didn’t stop when everyone bullied and laughed at me. I carried on, and look at me now, I’m as strong as ever and I won’t let anyone get in my way in becoming who I want to be and what I want to do. She told me that I’m an inspiration.

Me? An inspiration, I never really thought about it, but she told me that I am. She told me how she wants to buy my book when it’s published, because it sounds like one of a kind. She told me to never ever give up, because I’ve come as far as I have and why should I give up. She said I have a big future ahead of me and that I should be proud of myself.

Well I am, I am proud of myself. Granted I wouldn’t be where I am now without some of the most important people in my life, but I’m standing here as strong as I am, as proud as I am, and as dedicated and passionate. That’s one of the best feelings in the world to be told you’re an inspiration. Thank you for another person making me believe in myself just that little bit more.